acting is hard. 

everyday i have new beautiful little realizations.

today i realized that i will never stop having these realizations as long as i choose to live this life.

i also realized that it may be pretend but in order to be brilliant you must let yourself get torn up from the inside out, and that feels real.

i am so scared, excited, terrified, in awe, paralyzed and yet moved by this.

there is always another horizon.